The trial of my faith

I have always felt that what Moroni was referring to in Ether 12:6 about the trial of a person's faith was referring to difficult times.  He certainly was going through them!  He had seen his entire people destroyed and even his father killed by the enemies that now sought him.  He was in hiding, and yet the things that he records in hiding and on the run include a discourse of his father on faith, hope, and charity. While he certainly had hope for the future of the record he bore, what hope did he hold onto for himself in his own personal situation?
He testifies that if one holds on faithful through those difficult times, through the trial of ones faith - times when doubt may threaten, or when despair or fear seem to pursue - that they will be blessed with the "witness."  He wrote, "I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith."  Specifically, this was his own editorial comment on the Jaredites that would not believe the prophecies of Ether because they could not see them. He continues, with the example of the Nephites faith that brought them a visit from their Savior. He writes, "Wherefore, ye may also have hope, and be partakers of the gift, if ye will but have faith...for if there be no faith among the children of men God can do no miracle among them."  What is the witness?  And how then do we exercise faith?
The last one first. Joseph Smith taught that "faith is the principle of action in all intelligent beings." (Lectures on Faith:1)  Faith is a cause of action then. James taught, "Faith without works is dead being alone."  Elder Richard G. Scott taught, "Every time you act in faith, that is, act in worthiness on an impression, you will receive the confirming evidence of the Spirit." (GC Apr. 2003)
Moroni had difficulties, but he also had a responsibility - a direction that he had been given by God - to finish the record and hide it up unto the Lord.  He performed his responsibility marvelously and among the last words he wrote included the witness he has received that "I soon go to rest in the paradise of my God."
Perhaps exercising faith has more to do with how well we serve the Lord in the midst of our difficulties then how well we can grit our teeth and be stoic.  Certainly there are times when we must be still and know that He is God. There are also times (maybe more than not) that require us to believe and go forward doing the will of God with the attitude of Daniel's friends who after testifying of the power of God to deliver them from death, reply to the angry king, "But if not, be it known unto thee, O king, that we will not serve thy gods, nor worship the golden image which thou hast set up."  Their unrelenting firmness to act in in faith and worthiness on direction given from God eventually leads the king to exclaim (after the furnace) "there is no other God that can deliver after this sort." (Daniel 3:29).
A little over seven years ago I found a little piece of a wall in Phoenix Children's Hospital where people could attach messages of hope and inspiration on little slips of paper.  Feeling immense gratitude for the miracle that was the birth of my Christi I wrote those simple words from Daniel 3:29, "there is no other God that can deliver after this sort."  We had been delivered too.  Delivered from fear and doubt as often as they had come, and delivered from the expectations of the medical experts who had delivered woeful prognoses.
Time and time again over the last seven years we were delivered again and again, and to me it became maybe a little bit too common.  That is until this Tuesday.
So tonight, after so much good and positive news about Christi's improving situation, she had a setback. The sedative they were about to wean her off of, instead of cutting the dose, the doctors 5x'd it.  The seizures had returned.  So to suppress the electrical storm within the brain they were going to take her back down to the depths of her medically induced coma. No she hadn't awakened, but moving that direction had brought the seizures back.  The news was almost paralyzing.
But if to exercise faith is to act, then it can't be. There is STILL no other God that can deliver after this sort.  His plan is STILL perfect, and doing His will and accepting His plan is STILL the choice that will bring the most peace and happiness to anyone and everyone.  Maybe there is a double message in the phrase "Be 'still' and know that I am God."  I will be still, by seeking still, by serving still, still standing for truth, and still seeking to act on what He directs me to do.
The witness will come.